Thank you! I appreciate it so much!
After years (11 years to be exact) of being tormented about my love for John Mayer, I’ve decided to speak out and tell you my story. I get it all the time about how I am weird, or a stalker as my best friends like to call me. I am here to assure you that I am neither of those things. Once you here my story maybe it can help you see that music can change lives. That it gives us hope when we think all is lost.
(Room for Squares 2001) When all of my friends would be listening to the latest Britney Spears or Backstreet Boys songs I was listening to John Mayer. I was in the third grade when I first heard John Mayer’s First album. My dad owns a Bar-B-Que restaurant and when we would run out of something me and my sister would have to go to the store and get it. As we are walking through Wal-Mart my sister (who was a senior in high school at this time) Spot’s “Room For Squares” and buys it. We get into the car and she puts the CD into the Radio. I instantly fell in love. From then on I would make my sister play that CD every time we got into her Red Daytona.
(Heavier Things 2003) My parents divorced and my mom and I moved to Louisiana so we could be close to my older sister. After listening to “Daughters” I realized that we need a Mom and Dad and when things don’t work out it’s hard to understand. After hearing that john had a similar story with his parents it made me feel better to know that I am not the only person who has been through the hard times me and my family were about to face. When you’re younger you can’t wait to grow up and sometimes it’s scary to face some of the things we have to face. John made it a little easier on me in that time. His music was my very own security blanket.
(Continuum 2006) Three years later and Three years older. I was headed into my freshman year of high school. I was between parents. My sister was married and was having her first child. I was going through the changes of high school and growing up. Trying to figure out where I belonged, how I was supposed to dress, and who were my friends. All I wanted to do was just stop everything. When you get older it’s like you are on a train and you just want to stop and find your place in this big crazy world when you are not really sure where you are supposed to get off. It’s hard to tell behind a person’s smile but you could see in their eyes that they were so scared to grow older and more than that afraid to answer the question of “What’s next?”
(Battle Studies 2009) On July 17, 2009 my life was changed forever. While riding with friends to go and get something to eat the driver of the vehicle lost control of the wheel and we crashed into a pole. I will never forget the actions that lead to before we hit the pole. I grabbed my friend Kelsey’s seat belt who was sitting in front of me, knowing that when we hit she would go through the window if I didn’t. When we hit I was thrust into the front seat slicing my hand open from holding the seatbelt and the driver was thrown from the vehicle. My friend Kelsey and I were trapped inside of the car as it caught on fire. All the doors were jammed and we were unable to get out. Kelsey’s Leg was smashed between the front seat and the dashboard and she was unable to move. All the sudden I heard people’s voices outside the car and I began screaming for help since the people couldn’t see where we were at in the car due to all the flames and smoke. They asked me to try and move to help them see exactly where we were. I moved towards the passenger side window crawling on top of Kelsey and banged my hand against the window. They then yelled “move back” so I pushed myself back as they shattered the window. Next thing I know I woke up in the hospital unable to move without being in pain. Finally the doctors told me I had been in a car accident and had broken my back, pelvis and arm. I couldn’t believe it. Every day I was in the hospital I had guests who were keeping me going my coaches, friends, family, teachers, and principals had all kept me going. For about 8 months I was in a wheel chair unable to walk. It was the most emotional and influential time of my life. Through the whole thing there was two people who had stood by my side. My boyfriend at the time Jose’ and My Mother. I remember the first time I was put into a wheelchair. I began to cry and ask god “why?” and then Jose’ came to me and held my hand and at that moment I knew that god had not done this to hurt me but to help me grow as a person. Months went by and I fell behind in school it was an emotional rollercoaster dealing with school and not being able to walk. Everyone around me kept me going. At times I felt I was ready to give up and just let this situation take me over but I wouldn’t allow it to conquer me. I believe that this hardship has made me who I am today. I have grown so much from it. At Midnight on November 17, 2009 Jose’ waited in line to get me Battle Studies. “War of my life” inspired me to keep pushing on. I was in the war of my life but I would not let it keep me down. I ended up going through physical therapy and learned how to walk again.
(Born & Raised 2012) Today I am so happy to be doing things that I love. My Shadow days are officially over. Sometimes people affect you and they don’t even know they do. If you’re a musician, writer, or just a regular person you matter and what you do matters. You could be helping someone by just being who you are. A smile, a song, or a book can change someone’s life for the good. Be that good in someone’s life. I can’t wait for the day when I’ll finally be Born & Raised.
“Music has kind of kept me centered through any kind of struggle in life.” – John Mayer
Thank you, John. For being that good in my life. For keeping me centered and reminding me that there is hope even in our darkest times and that we will keep dreaming and pushing on no matter what people say.
After finishing my rough draft tonight it’s time for this girl to get some sleep. Goodnight, tumblr. Stay tuned for the final copy!
Another Reason why i can’t wait to get my story out their. to prove people like this wrong about their thoughts on him.
Anonymous to @cemawe
“I am a hospice nurse from Ct.. Since I find John’s musics so soothing and comforting I have used it as music therapy for my patients. They have expressed how heartwarming and comforted they feel at the most difficult of times, It helps them find peace even in the end stages…
Another great example of why I am wanting to get my story out there and hear the stories of others!
Your voice is so soothing, comforting, and lovely that it makes me want to cry. Hearing your songs always feels like home.
I will forever love the feelings you give me.
Impatiently waiting for your return to the stage…
Stories like this is what made me write my story! so inspiring! cant wait for ya’ll to hear mine!
Hopefully I got your attention! I need your help! Today, one of my favorite teachers said that John Mayer was an awful person….and now I want to make one of those PowerPoints you see on here that would say why he’s not an awful person. Can y’all send me examples of why he isn’t? I have a few but need more (:
Imma prove this man wrong and try to change his opinion! Because we all know he’s not an awful person!
Show him my story when I post it soon! It will be sure to change his mind!!!
Just finished my rough draft of my #johnmayer story. Cant wait to release the final draft! stay tuned guys!!!!!
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